Ive set this blog up in an effort to push myself to actually get somewhere in life. Im sure im not the only one who usually feels like the world is against them, but Im beginning to lose my sanity. I know I take things too personally, so now im going to get personal back! I need all the help and encouragement I can get, and if I get lazy with something then everyone has permission to slap me silly!
Heres what I need help with!
1) I desperately need a job. This town is ridiculous for work. Weekends are harder I know. I currently have 4 forms to fill in and get sent back. Which I will do tomorrow. Or tonight. That would be even better! I have the opportunity to volunteer for victim support and also the SSAFA. So theseI will also call tomorrow. Might as well do something even if im not getting paid!
2) I need to get on with my studies. Im currently studying for my A level Psychology, at home. But of course with a million and one other things going on, it gets pushed to the back of my mind. This is so important though, because my final goal here is to attain a social care degree. My ultimate career goal is work with homeless people. And if i dont study, I wont get there.
3) I need to get healthy, and get some weight put on. I know Im only tiny, but I desperately need to eat properly and put some weight on. If you want to know why, you'll have to ask me. So each day Im gonna weigh myself, and try to eat more. For example today ive eaten 2 boiled eggs and toast, and 2 mini aero bars. This i will update tonight. Please forcefeed me! lol.

My (money reliant) goals are as follows
1) Get debts paid off. Once im working, this shouldnt take long. This is my priority.
2) Get my driving lessons. Matt (my better half!) may be able to help a little, but i still need to be able to afford proper lessons. I feel so trapped out in this village! I need the freedom!
3) Get our own place. Although we'll only be renting, Matt and I want to find our own little lovenest!

4) Wedding plans! The most expensive affair im sure, but also the most exciting. I cant focus on just the shit things in life, so ill also keep you all posted on our plans here, because as you all should know by now, the wedding will be in Scotland.

Anyway, promise this is the boring part over! Now you see where I want to be, you can help encourage me. I cant get let things get me down. I have to believe I can do things. And all achievements start with the smallest step right?